Friday, April 11, 2014

Is it time?

I woke up this morning convinced it was Saturday. Much to my disappointment, it's actually Friday! After several weeks of very little sleep, my energy level is pretty low. Connor has 4 teeth coming in and is wanting to comfort nurse all the time, including most of the night. My patience level is directly related to how much I've slept so our days have been a little rough lately.

Several months ago, Connor was down to nursing only first thing in the morning, before nap time, and at bedtime. He never nursed for long, just a couple of minutes and I was totally content with that. We were still enjoying the time and it made it easy to get him to sleep. Then we had the whole not really a concussion virus and the only thing he could keep down was breast milk. For days the only thing he wanted to do was nurse. I was of course more than happy to let him do that as he was so sick. But once he recovered he wanted to maintain that frequent nursing schedule. It was like nursing a newborn with me getting absolutely nothing done. I have been trying to cut it down but he is fighting me tooth and nail. Most of his nursing sessions are actually spent looking around and playing, not actually nursing. He bites me when I try to finish nursing sessions and headbutts me if I tell him no. When he bites, I tell him no and set him on the floor but he just laughs. At night he simply screams and ends up waking Grace up which of course causes all sorts of problems. The past several weeks he has been up at least 2-3 times a night wanting to nurse. I am all for extended breastfeeding but this boy is pressing his luck. After a particularly bad bite two days ago (let's just say I bled a lot) I'm thinking it might be time to wean him.

I don't really know what I want to do yet and I guess I'm looking for your advice. I would love to hear from some ladies that have dealt with extended breastfeeding or weaning a toddler. Again, I have no problem continuing to nurse, but I absolutely cannot deal with the biting and headbutting.

As I read over this post, I realize I sound crazy. I should just stop right? I'm not a crunchy mom, I have never had the desire to nurse forever. But I was forced to stop nursing Grace at 9.5 months due to my heart failure so I'm having a really hard time mentally preparing myself for being totally done breastfeeding. So is it time to wean? I haven't decided yet. I do know that Mike and I are going away for 2 days in June and my pump is dead so either I need to wean him or have him down to only 1 or 2 nursing sessions a day.

It's so hard to say no to this face!


1 comment:

  1. Don't be too hard on yourself. Every child and every situation is different. I do believe that nursing should be a great experience for BOTH of you. You have not failed him by deciding to wean--should you make that decision. From the sounds of it, it may take time and even more patience on your part. Best of luck, mama!

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